Twas another hot, humid day today...so thankful for our air conditioning.
I'm having a bit of quiet time right now, as mother has nodded off. I am ready for bed myself though, i'm so tired.
Today was not so busy, i had another terrible headache and i napped in the morning after i'd taken something for it and it made me sleepy. I woke up in time to make mother dinner, but she was upset with me for napping so she declined lunch and instead, fixed herself a little something. That is fine, i will just let her work herself through it.
I got myself ready around 4pm and then when Sue got home, we went to Walmart. Mother decided she was staying home, so off the two of us went. It was hotter and more humid than i really thought..i could hardly wait to get to Walmart. We made it there by taxi and began shopping. Each of us had a list of things we wanted to pick up. In no time the cart was full and we were ready to head home. The ride home was very breezy, thanks to the windows being wide open...the driver was quiet but S and i chatted and laughed the whole way home.
Once home, with everything put away, we ordered dinner...Swiss Chalet, yum! Mother and S had ribs and chicken while i had a charbroiled burger (which was just yummy) and we watched some tv for the rest of the evening. So You Think You Can Dance was on for an hour at 9pm...we watched that, then various other things....and now it's 11.20pm and i'm ready for bed.
I think i'll close this post and head to bed.
Night, night.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Is it ever hot outside. 34c with the humidex. Thank goodness my nephew got both a/c units in yesterday, the place is nice and cool.
I did another four loads of laundry this morning, mainly bedding and table toppers. My sister is going to do all the ironing tonight so i needed to get all of the stuff washed. Tonight i was polish and tidy up my room.
Saturday we are having our living room furniture and carpet cleaned. I can hardly wait...though the furniture is not very old, it is looking dingy. After that's done, my sister and i will clean and that will be it for the weekend, i have no plans thus far, apart from that.
Today i had to call the pharmacy and have a bunch of prescriptions refilled, some for me, some for my mother. There always seems to be something we need and i feel like i am always waiting for a delivery of some sort.
With the laundry all done, i should be making the bed, as i washed the bedding..but it can wait for a bit as i write this post. Just before i sat down i ran the vacuum as i'd tracked up lint from the floor of the laundry room, gosh i hate when that happens....good thing i didn't vacuum before doing laundry, then i'd really be teed off.
Spoke to Rich earlier this morning, he is doing well, still no job. At least his spirits are still up, i have to hand it to him for that, i think i'd be pretty down myself. He always has been a real postitive person though, so i shouldn't be surprised. Anyway, my nephew John had called two days ago, asking me to ask Rich to take a look at a computer he'd picked up...basically he just wants it assessed to see if its any good, etc...then he'll decide on whether to give it to my niece Rachael or his son Connor. Rich was all too happy to help, so i'll call John later and give him Rich's phone number.
Well i supposed i should go clean in the bathroom...so i'll post this, i hope to post back later.
I did another four loads of laundry this morning, mainly bedding and table toppers. My sister is going to do all the ironing tonight so i needed to get all of the stuff washed. Tonight i was polish and tidy up my room.
Saturday we are having our living room furniture and carpet cleaned. I can hardly wait...though the furniture is not very old, it is looking dingy. After that's done, my sister and i will clean and that will be it for the weekend, i have no plans thus far, apart from that.
Today i had to call the pharmacy and have a bunch of prescriptions refilled, some for me, some for my mother. There always seems to be something we need and i feel like i am always waiting for a delivery of some sort.
With the laundry all done, i should be making the bed, as i washed the bedding..but it can wait for a bit as i write this post. Just before i sat down i ran the vacuum as i'd tracked up lint from the floor of the laundry room, gosh i hate when that happens....good thing i didn't vacuum before doing laundry, then i'd really be teed off.
Spoke to Rich earlier this morning, he is doing well, still no job. At least his spirits are still up, i have to hand it to him for that, i think i'd be pretty down myself. He always has been a real postitive person though, so i shouldn't be surprised. Anyway, my nephew John had called two days ago, asking me to ask Rich to take a look at a computer he'd picked up...basically he just wants it assessed to see if its any good, etc...then he'll decide on whether to give it to my niece Rachael or his son Connor. Rich was all too happy to help, so i'll call John later and give him Rich's phone number.
Well i supposed i should go clean in the bathroom...so i'll post this, i hope to post back later.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
I am so tired, it's been a very busy day.
Woke up early to chat with a good friend online who was going to be online after working nights last night. My alarm went off but i promptly fell back asleep, darn! An hour later my next alarm went off, so that i could call our hairdressers for an appointment...sure enough we were about to get an appointment at 1pm, hooray. My hair is long, needs a cut and highlights.
So i decided since i had time, it was only 9am and mother and i hadn't gone to bed till 4am this morning, that i would go back to sleep until 10.30 am when i would wake up and call my friend Dave before he headed to work...so i set my alarm and laid back down. My mother was not happy and threatened to not go to our appointment, she wanted me to stay up but i was sleepy, so i slept. My alarm went off at 10.30am but i snoozed... and by that time i woke and called Dave but he'd already left. This day was not going so well.
I plugged in the curling iron and tried to fix my behead, not an easy task.... and it didn't go as well as i'd hoped... but in the end i gave in and just brushed it behind my ears and thought...what the heck, i'm heading to the hairdressers anyway. I put some makeup on but didn't fuss...i find i've really gotten away from it lately, perhaps out of laziness...i'll have to make more of an effort in future.
Then mother and i began to wonder what each would wear. I picked out my outfit fairly quickly...a tank top under a denim shirt..with black jeans. I was not happy once dressed so i changed into just a moss green tshirt with my black jeans. Ok..so i was ready...just a bit of perfume away from mother and her diseased lungs and that was me, all set.
So i found some clothes for mother...jeans and a tshirt. Jeans were not correct though, they were too dark, she wanted lighter jeans. Found those, they looked too big but she found another pair of capris...they would do. The tshirt was another story. A few weeks ago, for mothers birthday, i bought her two new tshirts...she had her heart set on one... but when she put it on, she said it felt too tight...shame because it was a lovely shirt...so she tried on the second one. There wasn't enough give in it for her, so she was unhappy...off i went to look for another tshirt. Found one, nope... didn't want that one...found another, got it on..she was happy with it though she was getting irritable, who can blame her...and she started in on me about how i shouldn't have gone back to sleep because now we were rushed for time...and her clothes needed ironing but i didn't have to do them, etc. So the blue shirt she'd settled on to go with her blue capris looked nice...until she went to tbe bathroom and came back...and as she was walking towards me, i noticed a stain. Was it water, i asked... no, upon closer inspection it was not, it was a grease stain...while i heard about how my laundering skills were seriously lacking, i searched for another and found another suitable tshirt that matched the pants. Finally, she was all set...except i had to dig out her portable oxygen machine, put a new tank on...put the used tank away for pick up another day...then switch her from the home unit to the portable one....and then we were ready. I had our shoes and purses ready, grabbed a bottle of water and a sweater for mother in case the a/c was on in the salon...called a taxi and off we went.
Thankfully we arrived with more than 5 minutes to spare, but they took each of us right away...and after some fun and laughter and waiting and waiting, we were done.
I made a trip to the bank machine for mother...then went to the chinese food store for some egg rolls and spring rolls to take home (they ended up being very yummy, mmm!) for a snack as we were starving. On the way we stopped at a grocery store and i ran in and picked up a few things for tonights dinner and then we were finally on our way home.
Once there, i had help mother in, she was right out of breath but she made it, i was proud of her...and i got her in the apartment and then tried to switch her from the portable to the home until...only it was sounding an alarm when we turned it back on. Uh oh... a problem. We kept trying to get it working properly, i even reset the machine..to no avail. This would not do, so i had to call Life Breath. They took the info and said they'd have someone call me back. Oh good..a few minutes later sure enough they called back...and diagnosed the problem. Apparently when we go out we shouldnt shut the machine off, as that tends to be when the machine will fail... so they had to bring us a new one. Mothers regular guy, Aaron came (what a hunk!) and replaced the machine...just basically dashed in and out as he had other calls to make. Right...that was sorted, thankfully. Mother is always much more at ease when she is on her home unit.
After all that i changed into shorts and a tshirt, got water and ice for everyone and got mother settled. We ate our spring/egg rolls and just sat gabbing for a bit. My sister was commenting on my hair, which turned out very nice. Its quite blonde after she did my roots and then gave me highlights, i love it. This time she did it all flippy..hard to describe but i love it.
While we were out, Michael had put the a/c unit in the living room window... but still had the one in my room to put in. After much waiting, he finally did so as i type this it is nice and cool (my computer is in my bedroom) ...and just in time as its really supposed to be hot and humid the next couple of days.
As they installed the a/c in my bedroom i whipped up a quick, simple pasta sauce and we had that over spaghetti. It was quite yummy, if i do say so myself. Of course, no one was really hungry by the time we ate but the three of us did eat (Michael didn't join us) and enjoyed it.
We ate late and it hasn't been long since i got the dishes done... now i'm almost ready for bed but i think i'll wait to see if Dave calls me tonight, he may or may not. Oh shoot, i just remember i have to called Rich... must go.
Goodnight blog...yawnnnssssss
Woke up early to chat with a good friend online who was going to be online after working nights last night. My alarm went off but i promptly fell back asleep, darn! An hour later my next alarm went off, so that i could call our hairdressers for an appointment...sure enough we were about to get an appointment at 1pm, hooray. My hair is long, needs a cut and highlights.
So i decided since i had time, it was only 9am and mother and i hadn't gone to bed till 4am this morning, that i would go back to sleep until 10.30 am when i would wake up and call my friend Dave before he headed to work...so i set my alarm and laid back down. My mother was not happy and threatened to not go to our appointment, she wanted me to stay up but i was sleepy, so i slept. My alarm went off at 10.30am but i snoozed... and by that time i woke and called Dave but he'd already left. This day was not going so well.
I plugged in the curling iron and tried to fix my behead, not an easy task.... and it didn't go as well as i'd hoped... but in the end i gave in and just brushed it behind my ears and thought...what the heck, i'm heading to the hairdressers anyway. I put some makeup on but didn't fuss...i find i've really gotten away from it lately, perhaps out of laziness...i'll have to make more of an effort in future.
Then mother and i began to wonder what each would wear. I picked out my outfit fairly quickly...a tank top under a denim shirt..with black jeans. I was not happy once dressed so i changed into just a moss green tshirt with my black jeans. Ok..so i was ready...just a bit of perfume away from mother and her diseased lungs and that was me, all set.
So i found some clothes for mother...jeans and a tshirt. Jeans were not correct though, they were too dark, she wanted lighter jeans. Found those, they looked too big but she found another pair of capris...they would do. The tshirt was another story. A few weeks ago, for mothers birthday, i bought her two new tshirts...she had her heart set on one... but when she put it on, she said it felt too tight...shame because it was a lovely shirt...so she tried on the second one. There wasn't enough give in it for her, so she was unhappy...off i went to look for another tshirt. Found one, nope... didn't want that one...found another, got it on..she was happy with it though she was getting irritable, who can blame her...and she started in on me about how i shouldn't have gone back to sleep because now we were rushed for time...and her clothes needed ironing but i didn't have to do them, etc. So the blue shirt she'd settled on to go with her blue capris looked nice...until she went to tbe bathroom and came back...and as she was walking towards me, i noticed a stain. Was it water, i asked... no, upon closer inspection it was not, it was a grease stain...while i heard about how my laundering skills were seriously lacking, i searched for another and found another suitable tshirt that matched the pants. Finally, she was all set...except i had to dig out her portable oxygen machine, put a new tank on...put the used tank away for pick up another day...then switch her from the home unit to the portable one....and then we were ready. I had our shoes and purses ready, grabbed a bottle of water and a sweater for mother in case the a/c was on in the salon...called a taxi and off we went.
Thankfully we arrived with more than 5 minutes to spare, but they took each of us right away...and after some fun and laughter and waiting and waiting, we were done.
I made a trip to the bank machine for mother...then went to the chinese food store for some egg rolls and spring rolls to take home (they ended up being very yummy, mmm!) for a snack as we were starving. On the way we stopped at a grocery store and i ran in and picked up a few things for tonights dinner and then we were finally on our way home.
Once there, i had help mother in, she was right out of breath but she made it, i was proud of her...and i got her in the apartment and then tried to switch her from the portable to the home until...only it was sounding an alarm when we turned it back on. Uh oh... a problem. We kept trying to get it working properly, i even reset the machine..to no avail. This would not do, so i had to call Life Breath. They took the info and said they'd have someone call me back. Oh good..a few minutes later sure enough they called back...and diagnosed the problem. Apparently when we go out we shouldnt shut the machine off, as that tends to be when the machine will fail... so they had to bring us a new one. Mothers regular guy, Aaron came (what a hunk!) and replaced the machine...just basically dashed in and out as he had other calls to make. Right...that was sorted, thankfully. Mother is always much more at ease when she is on her home unit.
After all that i changed into shorts and a tshirt, got water and ice for everyone and got mother settled. We ate our spring/egg rolls and just sat gabbing for a bit. My sister was commenting on my hair, which turned out very nice. Its quite blonde after she did my roots and then gave me highlights, i love it. This time she did it all flippy..hard to describe but i love it.
While we were out, Michael had put the a/c unit in the living room window... but still had the one in my room to put in. After much waiting, he finally did so as i type this it is nice and cool (my computer is in my bedroom) ...and just in time as its really supposed to be hot and humid the next couple of days.
As they installed the a/c in my bedroom i whipped up a quick, simple pasta sauce and we had that over spaghetti. It was quite yummy, if i do say so myself. Of course, no one was really hungry by the time we ate but the three of us did eat (Michael didn't join us) and enjoyed it.
We ate late and it hasn't been long since i got the dishes done... now i'm almost ready for bed but i think i'll wait to see if Dave calls me tonight, he may or may not. Oh shoot, i just remember i have to called Rich... must go.
Goodnight blog...yawnnnssssss
Monday, May 28, 2007
It's been quite a weekend...some things i'd rather not talk about here. If anyone has been here, prior to today's post, you know why. I told a lie to someone and it caught up with me, now he is no longer speaking with me and hates me. I don't blame him but i miss him and his company online. I had posted a conversation between the two of us that explained everything... but for my own self preservation, i took it down. I'm the one who has to live with my mistake. Enough said on that topic.
Friday was brutally hot and humid and there is more weather like this on the way for later this week, so tonight we are putting in the air conditioner.
First let me tell you about my day...
This morning i woke very early (for me) at 7am. This past weekend i'd slept quite a bit, both my mother and i did, she because she was not feeling well and me because i was feeling down. What a pair we are. So this morning i woke up and needed to bathe and wash my hair badly, talk about bedhead. So in i got...oh it felt so good. I tried to rush but really i did not want to...i wanted to lie in there for hours. I didn't though... i hurried and got done. When i was done and had dried my hair, i decided i'd do laundry.
I sorted the laundry and decided i'd do four loads and save the rest for tomorrow. When i went down to the laundry room, there was no one using it...hooray i thought. Clear sailing ahead. I put the loads in and came back up to the apartment, mother doesn't like to be alone for too long when it can be helped. In 30mins i went back down to put the stuff in the dryers, still there was no one around, so i put set the dryers and back up i came. When i went down 40 minutes later, the dryers were done but boy was it packed...there were wet loads on top of each dryer and as i arrived there was an Asian lady removing stuff from the washers and another lady had just arrived to put in her washing. I got in there just in time. I do like it when i can do all of the loads at once, uninterrupted.
Mother and i folded the laundry and i got that all sorted and in each persons place...and then i was finished. That done, i decided to vacuum and clean the bathroom. After that i decided to take a break...and so i sat down at my computer to see if anyone was online, thankfully a couple were and we had nice chats.
Then it was bath time for mother. I got it all ready for her and helped her in and she washed all she could and then i finished with what she couldnt manage... then i helped her out and she sat down to dry off while i went to get us some fresh ice water, we both drink a lot of it these days.
So mother and i were both bathed and feeling chipper... and we are really looking forward to getting our hair done tomorrow, if that works out. I had called earlier in the day but the girl i spoke to couldnt set up an appointment for the owner who does mothers hair...and the girl who does mine wasnt in, so i'll call back at 9am. I need it trimmed and coloured. Want to go way blonde for the summer... and my hair is long..and i've been toying with the idea of cutting it short for summer but i've decided finally that i want to let it grow..it's grown this long so i think i'll just keep it going, then i have the option of putting it up or pulling it back into a ponytail. Yes...i like that idea.
Well..everyone is home, i should get dinner going.
Goodnight blog.
Friday was brutally hot and humid and there is more weather like this on the way for later this week, so tonight we are putting in the air conditioner.
First let me tell you about my day...
This morning i woke very early (for me) at 7am. This past weekend i'd slept quite a bit, both my mother and i did, she because she was not feeling well and me because i was feeling down. What a pair we are. So this morning i woke up and needed to bathe and wash my hair badly, talk about bedhead. So in i got...oh it felt so good. I tried to rush but really i did not want to...i wanted to lie in there for hours. I didn't though... i hurried and got done. When i was done and had dried my hair, i decided i'd do laundry.
I sorted the laundry and decided i'd do four loads and save the rest for tomorrow. When i went down to the laundry room, there was no one using it...hooray i thought. Clear sailing ahead. I put the loads in and came back up to the apartment, mother doesn't like to be alone for too long when it can be helped. In 30mins i went back down to put the stuff in the dryers, still there was no one around, so i put set the dryers and back up i came. When i went down 40 minutes later, the dryers were done but boy was it packed...there were wet loads on top of each dryer and as i arrived there was an Asian lady removing stuff from the washers and another lady had just arrived to put in her washing. I got in there just in time. I do like it when i can do all of the loads at once, uninterrupted.
Mother and i folded the laundry and i got that all sorted and in each persons place...and then i was finished. That done, i decided to vacuum and clean the bathroom. After that i decided to take a break...and so i sat down at my computer to see if anyone was online, thankfully a couple were and we had nice chats.
Then it was bath time for mother. I got it all ready for her and helped her in and she washed all she could and then i finished with what she couldnt manage... then i helped her out and she sat down to dry off while i went to get us some fresh ice water, we both drink a lot of it these days.
So mother and i were both bathed and feeling chipper... and we are really looking forward to getting our hair done tomorrow, if that works out. I had called earlier in the day but the girl i spoke to couldnt set up an appointment for the owner who does mothers hair...and the girl who does mine wasnt in, so i'll call back at 9am. I need it trimmed and coloured. Want to go way blonde for the summer... and my hair is long..and i've been toying with the idea of cutting it short for summer but i've decided finally that i want to let it grow..it's grown this long so i think i'll just keep it going, then i have the option of putting it up or pulling it back into a ponytail. Yes...i like that idea.
Well..everyone is home, i should get dinner going.
Goodnight blog.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Good morning.
I awoke a few minutes ago with a splitting headache...i have taken some pain medication and i hope it helps soon as i am tired and would like to go back to sleep for a bit.
Last night as i was watching tv, a headache began...and it was so bad i had to leave the living room where the three of us were watching tv, to head to my room where it was darker, quieter and with the fans on, cooler. I took some pain medication and laid on the bed and i must have conked right out because i don't remember falling asleep. I awoke to to the tv and voices...mother and Sue.... mother watching tv, Sue playing on my computer. My headache had not eased and i promptly fell back asleep and woke at nearly midnight.
Just after then, Dave called and we spoke for a bit but she said i sounded 'out of it' which i was so we ended our call and i played some solitaire. Not my brightest move... but it eased after awhile...after lots of water and tylenols....i take too many, i know... but i have to, the pain is unbearable without it.
I didn't stay at my computer too long because the bright screen finally did get to me...so i took a soaking wet face cloth, soaked with ice cold water and doused myself with it...cooling me down and soaking my tshirt...and crawled back into bed, damp but cooler...and fell back to sleep until i was awakened with this headache not so long ago.
I wish someone was online to chat with...someone to distract me for a little while... but there is no one...so i'll play a bit of solitaire then try to get back to sleep.
Buddy has been sick twice since i've been awake....little did i feel like cleaning up after her... but luckily she was sick on the tile floors and so it was an easy job.
Long weekend for N ... i hope he has a good one but i hope we can spend time together, i really enjoy his company..especially voice chatting. Maybe we will talk on the phone...we will see. He may have a night out tonight with his friends from work... so i probably won't see him tonight... unless he comes home drunk and feels like chatting... i'll keep my fingers crossed for that.
Well, off to play some cards... more blogging later, for sure.
I awoke a few minutes ago with a splitting headache...i have taken some pain medication and i hope it helps soon as i am tired and would like to go back to sleep for a bit.
Last night as i was watching tv, a headache began...and it was so bad i had to leave the living room where the three of us were watching tv, to head to my room where it was darker, quieter and with the fans on, cooler. I took some pain medication and laid on the bed and i must have conked right out because i don't remember falling asleep. I awoke to to the tv and voices...mother and Sue.... mother watching tv, Sue playing on my computer. My headache had not eased and i promptly fell back asleep and woke at nearly midnight.
Just after then, Dave called and we spoke for a bit but she said i sounded 'out of it' which i was so we ended our call and i played some solitaire. Not my brightest move... but it eased after awhile...after lots of water and tylenols....i take too many, i know... but i have to, the pain is unbearable without it.
I didn't stay at my computer too long because the bright screen finally did get to me...so i took a soaking wet face cloth, soaked with ice cold water and doused myself with it...cooling me down and soaking my tshirt...and crawled back into bed, damp but cooler...and fell back to sleep until i was awakened with this headache not so long ago.
I wish someone was online to chat with...someone to distract me for a little while... but there is no one...so i'll play a bit of solitaire then try to get back to sleep.
Buddy has been sick twice since i've been awake....little did i feel like cleaning up after her... but luckily she was sick on the tile floors and so it was an easy job.
Long weekend for N ... i hope he has a good one but i hope we can spend time together, i really enjoy his company..especially voice chatting. Maybe we will talk on the phone...we will see. He may have a night out tonight with his friends from work... so i probably won't see him tonight... unless he comes home drunk and feels like chatting... i'll keep my fingers crossed for that.
Well, off to play some cards... more blogging later, for sure.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Today is a hot, humid day. Very muggy, very uncomfortable. I don't like days like today, no matter what you do, you sweat. I wish we had the air conditioning units in... but it'd be a shame to have them in now as it's supposed to get cooler.
Buddy isn't doing very well... i had to take her to the vets this morning, just so he could look at her. She had a slight fever but her blood work came back and all was clear with that...so he reiterated what he'd told me last night when i spoke to him, that it was probably the antibiotics and to discontinue them. Okay, so when does she stop vomiting... he said it could be a couple of days before it gets through her system...meanwhile the poor thing is vomiting all over the place, which is not endearing herself to my sister, who sometimes has to clean up the vomit. She managed to vomit again on my bed, making this the third time i have to wash bedding. I hope she feels better soon. He did say to watch her...and if she stops eating but continues to vomit, to c all them immediately, which i will do...for sure. She seems her normal self aside from the vomiting... Gosh, how many times will i mention that.
So yesterday, the pharmacy delivered my mothers prescriptions...only to forget one...when i called them back last night, they said they would send it out but the driver had gone home for the day, so they will be sending it out today. Great, another day of waiting. I decided, since they were coming again, i may as well order all of my vitamins, since i was getting low on those...and it would mean i wouldn't have to spend yet another day waiting for a delivery. Isn't it one of lifes annoyances, waiting for a delivery ..especially when you have no idea when it will arrive. At least when you order food...they give you some semblance of an idea as to how long will be. Sigh. Can you tell i am more than frustrated today.
SO .... let me recap......bedding is washed and ready to be vomited (there i said it again) on again...i can't vacuum or listen to music because i have to keep an ear out and you just know as soon as i turn the vacuum on, he will come.
Life's like that...
Buddy isn't doing very well... i had to take her to the vets this morning, just so he could look at her. She had a slight fever but her blood work came back and all was clear with that...so he reiterated what he'd told me last night when i spoke to him, that it was probably the antibiotics and to discontinue them. Okay, so when does she stop vomiting... he said it could be a couple of days before it gets through her system...meanwhile the poor thing is vomiting all over the place, which is not endearing herself to my sister, who sometimes has to clean up the vomit. She managed to vomit again on my bed, making this the third time i have to wash bedding. I hope she feels better soon. He did say to watch her...and if she stops eating but continues to vomit, to c all them immediately, which i will do...for sure. She seems her normal self aside from the vomiting... Gosh, how many times will i mention that.
So yesterday, the pharmacy delivered my mothers prescriptions...only to forget one...when i called them back last night, they said they would send it out but the driver had gone home for the day, so they will be sending it out today. Great, another day of waiting. I decided, since they were coming again, i may as well order all of my vitamins, since i was getting low on those...and it would mean i wouldn't have to spend yet another day waiting for a delivery. Isn't it one of lifes annoyances, waiting for a delivery ..especially when you have no idea when it will arrive. At least when you order food...they give you some semblance of an idea as to how long will be. Sigh. Can you tell i am more than frustrated today.
SO .... let me recap......bedding is washed and ready to be vomited (there i said it again) on again...i can't vacuum or listen to music because i have to keep an ear out and you just know as soon as i turn the vacuum on, he will come.
Life's like that...
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
It was supposed to be a hot, humid day here with a smog warning ...but it seems like a very nice day. Across the street from us there is a film being shot, not an unusual sight in this city but this one is close. There is a old school there and i believe they are filming there. Just a bit of neighbourhood excitement.
Last night Sue's other son John stopped by with his two boys Connor and Evan. They are so cute and so well behaved...and John looks amazing. He used to be quite heavy and so awhile ago he began walking..and now he has lost a ton of weight, i think 80lbs if not more. He looks so handsome...but he always did, even at his heaviest. Anyway, they were here and we had a nice visit. I got a couple of pictures on my cell phone of the boys. Evan, at one point, ever the phone geek even at his young age (i think Connor is 5 and Evan is 3) wanted to play with my phone...and i normally dont mind at all...but then i remembered i had a few certain photos on my phone and i thought oh i can't let him play, just in case...so i had to keep hold of it, so he played with the other phone, calling his friends, pretend, of course.
So when they were leaving...we got big hugs and kisses and off they went...then the funniest thing happened...Sue decided to rush out onto the balcony to say a final goodbye to her grandsons....so she rushed off...forgetting the screen was closed and she ran into the screen...bounced back into apartment, falling on the floor 'ass over tea kettle' as our mother would say. It was absolutely hilarious...she didnt even see the screen in her rush to get outside...knocking it off the tracks.. Well we laughed and laughed so hard my face hurt. Thereafter every time i looked at her, we'd burst out laughing. That was fun!
I should mention she was not hurt...which is a good thing.
Well...mother has had lunch already. She didn't want breakfast today, she wasn't hungry so she had an early lunch. Today she had a roast chicken sandwich with lettuce and mayo...with chicken noodle soup. I did not eat, i am not hungry.
I had to call in a bunch of prescriptions for my mother, they will be delivered when they hear back from the doctor.
Well i should go clean the bathroom and finish up the dishes.
Have a great day!
Last night Sue's other son John stopped by with his two boys Connor and Evan. They are so cute and so well behaved...and John looks amazing. He used to be quite heavy and so awhile ago he began walking..and now he has lost a ton of weight, i think 80lbs if not more. He looks so handsome...but he always did, even at his heaviest. Anyway, they were here and we had a nice visit. I got a couple of pictures on my cell phone of the boys. Evan, at one point, ever the phone geek even at his young age (i think Connor is 5 and Evan is 3) wanted to play with my phone...and i normally dont mind at all...but then i remembered i had a few certain photos on my phone and i thought oh i can't let him play, just in case...so i had to keep hold of it, so he played with the other phone, calling his friends, pretend, of course.
So when they were leaving...we got big hugs and kisses and off they went...then the funniest thing happened...Sue decided to rush out onto the balcony to say a final goodbye to her grandsons....so she rushed off...forgetting the screen was closed and she ran into the screen...bounced back into apartment, falling on the floor 'ass over tea kettle' as our mother would say. It was absolutely hilarious...she didnt even see the screen in her rush to get outside...knocking it off the tracks.. Well we laughed and laughed so hard my face hurt. Thereafter every time i looked at her, we'd burst out laughing. That was fun!
I should mention she was not hurt...which is a good thing.
Well...mother has had lunch already. She didn't want breakfast today, she wasn't hungry so she had an early lunch. Today she had a roast chicken sandwich with lettuce and mayo...with chicken noodle soup. I did not eat, i am not hungry.
I had to call in a bunch of prescriptions for my mother, they will be delivered when they hear back from the doctor.
Well i should go clean the bathroom and finish up the dishes.
Have a great day!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
A busy day for blogging...feel like i have lots to say today with so little words.
Buddy vomited again all over my bed...this meant having to strip it all down and wash my duvet and pillow cases (which is where most of the vomit ended up) again. She did this yesterday too...poor thing. So laundry is going and soon i'll have to start supper i suppose.
Almost 6pm, N is still asleep i guess or isn't online. I guess he isn't in the mood to chat.
M drove me over to the postal outlet and i was told the parcel is out on the truck, that it had been sent back out and sure enough there was a date on the card (todays date) saying it would be delivered today...was it, noooooooo...and given that it is almost 6pm i have given up on it arriving today too. Sigh.
Sue set mothers hair last night after i washed it and mother took the rollers out a little while ago, so i just finished combing it all out and spraying it into place. I affectionately call this 'helmet head'...so she is all set, having had her bath earlier. She always is a bit more chipper once she is bathed and her hair done. I really must take her to the hairdresses...i need mine colours and cut though i can ill afford it, it needs to be done.
I am thinking of calling N... but if he is sleeping i'd hate to wake him...maybe he just doesn't feel like being online and talking to me...so i shouldnt call..i don't know. Wish he'd come online.
I feel less panicky after taking the alprazalam, thank goodness for it..i take it before i go out too, to help those attacks that invariably happen when i go out and are around strange people, especially strange men. I wish i didn't feel this way... i want to be normal again.
Whatever normal is....
Buddy vomited again all over my bed...this meant having to strip it all down and wash my duvet and pillow cases (which is where most of the vomit ended up) again. She did this yesterday too...poor thing. So laundry is going and soon i'll have to start supper i suppose.
Almost 6pm, N is still asleep i guess or isn't online. I guess he isn't in the mood to chat.
M drove me over to the postal outlet and i was told the parcel is out on the truck, that it had been sent back out and sure enough there was a date on the card (todays date) saying it would be delivered today...was it, noooooooo...and given that it is almost 6pm i have given up on it arriving today too. Sigh.
Sue set mothers hair last night after i washed it and mother took the rollers out a little while ago, so i just finished combing it all out and spraying it into place. I affectionately call this 'helmet head'...so she is all set, having had her bath earlier. She always is a bit more chipper once she is bathed and her hair done. I really must take her to the hairdresses...i need mine colours and cut though i can ill afford it, it needs to be done.
I am thinking of calling N... but if he is sleeping i'd hate to wake him...maybe he just doesn't feel like being online and talking to me...so i shouldnt call..i don't know. Wish he'd come online.
I feel less panicky after taking the alprazalam, thank goodness for it..i take it before i go out too, to help those attacks that invariably happen when i go out and are around strange people, especially strange men. I wish i didn't feel this way... i want to be normal again.
Whatever normal is....
It is just after 3pm and i've gotten all the work done that i wanted to do today. N has gone for a nap and so i don't have him to chat with right now so i think i will go lay down. M just went out, when he gets back he says he will drive me over to the postal outlet to pick up that parcel N sent...i have no idea of their hours, i hope they will be open, never know how long M will be when he goes out.
I was feeling a bit panicky earlier, so i've taken one of my alprazolam, i hope it helps soon. I wish N had been able to stay online, i could have used his company...but he was so tired there is no way i could ask him. He says he'll be back later so i'll just lay down till then.
I was feeling a bit panicky earlier, so i've taken one of my alprazolam, i hope it helps soon. I wish N had been able to stay online, i could have used his company...but he was so tired there is no way i could ask him. He says he'll be back later so i'll just lay down till then.
I am bored and lonely today. Not in the greatest of moods right now, i don't knw what has come over me. I miss N and wish he'd come online, i keep looking for him, hoping... but i suppose he is busy, perhaps tending to his gardening or lawn or just even relaxing at work. He did tell me he can't be online as much...i understand but i miss him.
Mother has had her bath...right after her 11am show, which is good. Soon she'll be wanting lunch, probably the usual. I just threw in 3 loads of laundry...had some bedding, etc to wash since Buddy had vomited yesterday all over things. I'll vacuum shortly, i think...i'm just trying to pass some time until someone is online to chat with.
I feel sad...i guess because i keep looking for N but i doubt he is even thinking about me. I think i've fallen for him...is it too soon for that, i don't know... i don't know how to answer that right now. My heart doesn't feel like it's wrong...and my head says he doesn't feel the same way so should i...but that's no way to think. It isn't....i'm just feeling totally insecure, that's what it is. I want him to be looking for me online as soon as he gets home... but he doesn't...he isnt like that...so why am i. Why am i being so silly.
Change of subject.
Buddy seems okay so far today. As i mentioned earlier, i put her food down around 9.30am this morning and it is now almost 1pm and she has not vomited. I hope this means she is okay and just had a bit of an upset stomach yesterday. My sister gets so pissed off when she vomits...her compassion only goes so far. I mean i know she cleaned on the weekend but it's not as if Buddy can help it...clearly she was ill.
Just talked to Dave...he called to see how i was, i told him i was blogging. He is happy i am keeping up with it...i am too though i never really talk about November, except for a brief mention earlier. Somehow i just cant bring myself to talk about it...maybe now that N knows, i will be able to...let some of it out. I know i need to.
Well...it's almost time to get the washing into the dryers...so i'll go do that.
Mother has had her bath...right after her 11am show, which is good. Soon she'll be wanting lunch, probably the usual. I just threw in 3 loads of laundry...had some bedding, etc to wash since Buddy had vomited yesterday all over things. I'll vacuum shortly, i think...i'm just trying to pass some time until someone is online to chat with.
I feel sad...i guess because i keep looking for N but i doubt he is even thinking about me. I think i've fallen for him...is it too soon for that, i don't know... i don't know how to answer that right now. My heart doesn't feel like it's wrong...and my head says he doesn't feel the same way so should i...but that's no way to think. It isn't....i'm just feeling totally insecure, that's what it is. I want him to be looking for me online as soon as he gets home... but he doesn't...he isnt like that...so why am i. Why am i being so silly.
Change of subject.
Buddy seems okay so far today. As i mentioned earlier, i put her food down around 9.30am this morning and it is now almost 1pm and she has not vomited. I hope this means she is okay and just had a bit of an upset stomach yesterday. My sister gets so pissed off when she vomits...her compassion only goes so far. I mean i know she cleaned on the weekend but it's not as if Buddy can help it...clearly she was ill.
Just talked to Dave...he called to see how i was, i told him i was blogging. He is happy i am keeping up with it...i am too though i never really talk about November, except for a brief mention earlier. Somehow i just cant bring myself to talk about it...maybe now that N knows, i will be able to...let some of it out. I know i need to.
Well...it's almost time to get the washing into the dryers...so i'll go do that.
Yesterday i talk to N about what happened to me last November.
It was very hard to talk about with him....i worry him knowing about it will change how he sees me. I can't see how it wouldn't but i don't know...it's just something i'm now thinking about.
You see it took a piece out of me, changed me, changed how i see the world. I didn't want it to, it just did. Do i see all men as being animals, no...of course not...but i am a bit frightened of strange men. I get very nervous when i leave the house. I have panic attacks and have to take tablets to calm myself so it is hard going on walk and going shopping but i try to force myself...it's just that some days are easier than others.
It was very hard to talk about with him....i worry him knowing about it will change how he sees me. I can't see how it wouldn't but i don't know...it's just something i'm now thinking about.
You see it took a piece out of me, changed me, changed how i see the world. I didn't want it to, it just did. Do i see all men as being animals, no...of course not...but i am a bit frightened of strange men. I get very nervous when i leave the house. I have panic attacks and have to take tablets to calm myself so it is hard going on walk and going shopping but i try to force myself...it's just that some days are easier than others.
Tuesday already...the weekend just flew by.
Something is wrong with Buddy again, we think. She's been vomiting a lot and i am worried about her...we took up their food last night but i've just put it back down to see how things will go today. Bless her heart, i hope she is okay.
I awoke earlier with such a bad headache...i did not want to get up, but of course i had to, there are things that need doing. Mother is eating her breakfast as i type this and i am listening to Beth Orton on my headphones as i do. I'm not having breakfast because my tummy is upset. I am supposed to go out today but will leave it till later because right now i dont feel like showering or washing my hair. When mother is done eating, i'll clear up her breakfast dishes and then she wants to have a bath...that probably won't be until 1pm, after all of her morning/afternoon programs are done. Until then, i will get caught up on some things around here and run the vacuum too. Sue cleaned on the weekend so its fairly clean...so not much to do other than that.
Something is wrong with Buddy again, we think. She's been vomiting a lot and i am worried about her...we took up their food last night but i've just put it back down to see how things will go today. Bless her heart, i hope she is okay.
I awoke earlier with such a bad headache...i did not want to get up, but of course i had to, there are things that need doing. Mother is eating her breakfast as i type this and i am listening to Beth Orton on my headphones as i do. I'm not having breakfast because my tummy is upset. I am supposed to go out today but will leave it till later because right now i dont feel like showering or washing my hair. When mother is done eating, i'll clear up her breakfast dishes and then she wants to have a bath...that probably won't be until 1pm, after all of her morning/afternoon programs are done. Until then, i will get caught up on some things around here and run the vacuum too. Sue cleaned on the weekend so its fairly clean...so not much to do other than that.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
What a lazy Sunday it's been...i awoke at 12.30pm...after going to sleep shortly after 4am. I had been chatting and then watched some stuff i'd taped earlier in the week, with mother.
When i did wake, it was with a splitting headache, which is usually totally different to the tension headaches i normally have. Not sure what caused it (do you think too much sleep?) but it hurt. I took some tylenol 1's and began my day...first by taking my medications and then after barely wiping the sleep from my eyes, i had to feed mother. She was hungry though she had had breakfast...( it is such a relief to have my sister here, who can make her breakfast on the weekends) so at least she hadn't gone without. I made her the usual cream of mushroom soup, with two slices of whole wheat bread, buttered lightly and a glass of milk. After she ate, she fell asleep...she normally does. One of my favourite times of the day...it's just a bit of quiet time..or rather, time to myself.
Since my sister and her adult son have moved in though, there is not much quiet to be had...there are almost always 3 televisions going now, all on different channels, which drives me insane. At least mother has gotten into the habit of if not turning the tv completely off, turning the volume right now. I love that.
So she had a bit of a nap while i was online, chatting a bit with N. Seems we have worked things out...it's nice to be back in touch with him. We had kind of fallen out the other night, bit of a story. I insulted him by not trusting him fully when he asked me to meet him soon. I panicked and said i wasn't ready...and that hurt him. I didn't mean to hurt him, i was just being honest...but then he pulled away from me, which really hurt...and i missed him terribly, so i'm just glad we are talking again. I have a bunch of online friends but he is a very special man, one i have feelings for...which totally took me by surprise as this has never happened to me online. Mind you i have heard of it happening, i have online friends who have met their girlfriends or wives online... i always thought that was great but i didn't forsee it happening to me...meeting anyone that is. I am so glad N has come in to my life... i hope he stays.
So awhile ago, i tried to nap but really didn't...though i did lie down for about 45 mins. I just couldnt fully sleep, so i got up and washed my hair, washed my face and brushed my teeth..and then got supper going. I am making roast chickens (2)...with mashed potatoes...cauliflower and cheese sauce and sweet potatoes, with stuffing. I hope it will be yummy. A little while i threw in a small load of laundry...trying to keep ahead of it...with the four of us there always seems to be some to do.
Well i shall go finish up dinner, it is almost done now...have to keep a closer eye on it...just going to do the gravy now.
Yum!
When i did wake, it was with a splitting headache, which is usually totally different to the tension headaches i normally have. Not sure what caused it (do you think too much sleep?) but it hurt. I took some tylenol 1's and began my day...first by taking my medications and then after barely wiping the sleep from my eyes, i had to feed mother. She was hungry though she had had breakfast...( it is such a relief to have my sister here, who can make her breakfast on the weekends) so at least she hadn't gone without. I made her the usual cream of mushroom soup, with two slices of whole wheat bread, buttered lightly and a glass of milk. After she ate, she fell asleep...she normally does. One of my favourite times of the day...it's just a bit of quiet time..or rather, time to myself.
Since my sister and her adult son have moved in though, there is not much quiet to be had...there are almost always 3 televisions going now, all on different channels, which drives me insane. At least mother has gotten into the habit of if not turning the tv completely off, turning the volume right now. I love that.
So she had a bit of a nap while i was online, chatting a bit with N. Seems we have worked things out...it's nice to be back in touch with him. We had kind of fallen out the other night, bit of a story. I insulted him by not trusting him fully when he asked me to meet him soon. I panicked and said i wasn't ready...and that hurt him. I didn't mean to hurt him, i was just being honest...but then he pulled away from me, which really hurt...and i missed him terribly, so i'm just glad we are talking again. I have a bunch of online friends but he is a very special man, one i have feelings for...which totally took me by surprise as this has never happened to me online. Mind you i have heard of it happening, i have online friends who have met their girlfriends or wives online... i always thought that was great but i didn't forsee it happening to me...meeting anyone that is. I am so glad N has come in to my life... i hope he stays.
So awhile ago, i tried to nap but really didn't...though i did lie down for about 45 mins. I just couldnt fully sleep, so i got up and washed my hair, washed my face and brushed my teeth..and then got supper going. I am making roast chickens (2)...with mashed potatoes...cauliflower and cheese sauce and sweet potatoes, with stuffing. I hope it will be yummy. A little while i threw in a small load of laundry...trying to keep ahead of it...with the four of us there always seems to be some to do.
Well i shall go finish up dinner, it is almost done now...have to keep a closer eye on it...just going to do the gravy now.
Yum!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Another beautiful day out there. I know i should get out there and go for a walk but i just don't feel like it. I'm feeling down and missing N. We haven't really spoken since the other night...when everything went so wrong. I guess he feels he has to keep his distance from me. I can do nothing to change that. I don't even have his home number so that i could call him and try to talk about it...i'll just have to wait until he comes back to me, to talk...if he does.
So i'm having a lazy day. There are still those three loads of laundry left to do...and i know i should do them but i just don't want to...and if i'm honest, i'm hoping my sister will do them... but the laundry is usually my job, so i'll have to get up off my bum and get them done. Maybe in a little while.
For now, i'm online... but no one is around to talk to...so i think i'll play some solitaire...and then either read or nap or both.
Hockey is just coming on...an afternoon game between the Ottawa Senators and the Buffalo Sabres...i really hope the Sens win this game and put the series away. Will go watch..nothing much to say right now.
So i'm having a lazy day. There are still those three loads of laundry left to do...and i know i should do them but i just don't want to...and if i'm honest, i'm hoping my sister will do them... but the laundry is usually my job, so i'll have to get up off my bum and get them done. Maybe in a little while.
For now, i'm online... but no one is around to talk to...so i think i'll play some solitaire...and then either read or nap or both.
Hockey is just coming on...an afternoon game between the Ottawa Senators and the Buffalo Sabres...i really hope the Sens win this game and put the series away. Will go watch..nothing much to say right now.
Friday, May 18, 2007
What a busy day i am having. I went for a nice long walk this morning, i had some things to think about...so i was gone for over an hour, much to my mothers dismay. When i got back i decided i'd wait to do that laundry that was all piled up, waiting for me (gosh, there is lots of laundry when you are washing for four people)...and go grocery shopping instead.
Off i went...it is such a beautiful day, an absolutely perfect day, I wish the whole summer could be like this...blue skies, bright sun and a cool breeze...enough so that if you wanted, you could wear a jacket...but the sun being so warm, it was not really necessary. Anyway, i digress...off i went to do the shopping. I walked around the store, happily...picking up the things we needed. I ran into an acquaintance, had a nice chat and then got back to my shopping. Usually i make a lot of impulse purchases but i didn't do too badly...i took $200 dollars with me and left the store with $60 change....now that doesn't sound like much, for four people... but we had just had some groceries delivered the other day...and we do shop almost weekly at that price. So i called a taxi and loved being outside, waiting... but i didn't have to wait long. The taxi driver that i had was very nice and complimentary...furthering the probability of a nice tip. What the heck, i was in a good mood and it is always nice to have a nice chat with the driver on the journey home. He was very helpful, packing up the cart when we got back to the apartment... iam always so thankful for that. I love the shopping and the putting away and organizing of groceries but i hate the schlepping. So i got everything in and eventually put away...had a rest and then before long i had to get laundry underway. Not too bad, four loads initially and three more to do later. Four people equals a lot of laundry.
A couple of hours later i was done the laundry and still feeling perky. My sister had returned home from work and since she was home to keep mother company (i dared not leave her alone after i'd left her alone for over an hour for my walk and an hour or so for grocery shopping)...i decided to go to Walmart. I go there for various things...paper goods such as toilet paper and paper towels...as well as peach juice and five-alive drinking boxes, both of which my mother and i are addicted. I keep the fridge well stocked with both. $120 later....and i was on my way home again...different taxi driver...this one very friendly too..in the habit of calling me 'miss' when answering me. A nice touch i thought. He was very helpful in loading the cart too when we got back to the apartment..i always tip well for that because not all drivers are. Anyway, i was back home...i put dinner in the oven (we had cabbage rolls and salad with rolls) and proceeded to put away all of the stuff i'd bought. I must admit i love when the cupboards are full.
So we had dinner and i did dishes as my sister is in 'cleaning mode' now...so mother and i will just stay out of her way ...as she didn't want any help. I must say i don't mind that at all...i used to love to clean and i guess i still do but its nice to have someone else who also enjoys it, do it.
So now i am just relaxing.
I miss N...we had a bit of a thing..an argument almost but not quite. You see he asked to come see me and i panicked a bit, thinking his desire was based on the pic i'd sent of my breasts. I was wrong, i know that now... but it's too late, the damage is done and now he is staying away from me. I miss him very much...and i'm sorry i doubted him.
I hope we can sort things out... i thought we were getting close... maybe i was wrong.
Off i went...it is such a beautiful day, an absolutely perfect day, I wish the whole summer could be like this...blue skies, bright sun and a cool breeze...enough so that if you wanted, you could wear a jacket...but the sun being so warm, it was not really necessary. Anyway, i digress...off i went to do the shopping. I walked around the store, happily...picking up the things we needed. I ran into an acquaintance, had a nice chat and then got back to my shopping. Usually i make a lot of impulse purchases but i didn't do too badly...i took $200 dollars with me and left the store with $60 change....now that doesn't sound like much, for four people... but we had just had some groceries delivered the other day...and we do shop almost weekly at that price. So i called a taxi and loved being outside, waiting... but i didn't have to wait long. The taxi driver that i had was very nice and complimentary...furthering the probability of a nice tip. What the heck, i was in a good mood and it is always nice to have a nice chat with the driver on the journey home. He was very helpful, packing up the cart when we got back to the apartment... iam always so thankful for that. I love the shopping and the putting away and organizing of groceries but i hate the schlepping. So i got everything in and eventually put away...had a rest and then before long i had to get laundry underway. Not too bad, four loads initially and three more to do later. Four people equals a lot of laundry.
A couple of hours later i was done the laundry and still feeling perky. My sister had returned home from work and since she was home to keep mother company (i dared not leave her alone after i'd left her alone for over an hour for my walk and an hour or so for grocery shopping)...i decided to go to Walmart. I go there for various things...paper goods such as toilet paper and paper towels...as well as peach juice and five-alive drinking boxes, both of which my mother and i are addicted. I keep the fridge well stocked with both. $120 later....and i was on my way home again...different taxi driver...this one very friendly too..in the habit of calling me 'miss' when answering me. A nice touch i thought. He was very helpful in loading the cart too when we got back to the apartment..i always tip well for that because not all drivers are. Anyway, i was back home...i put dinner in the oven (we had cabbage rolls and salad with rolls) and proceeded to put away all of the stuff i'd bought. I must admit i love when the cupboards are full.
So we had dinner and i did dishes as my sister is in 'cleaning mode' now...so mother and i will just stay out of her way ...as she didn't want any help. I must say i don't mind that at all...i used to love to clean and i guess i still do but its nice to have someone else who also enjoys it, do it.
So now i am just relaxing.
I miss N...we had a bit of a thing..an argument almost but not quite. You see he asked to come see me and i panicked a bit, thinking his desire was based on the pic i'd sent of my breasts. I was wrong, i know that now... but it's too late, the damage is done and now he is staying away from me. I miss him very much...and i'm sorry i doubted him.
I hope we can sort things out... i thought we were getting close... maybe i was wrong.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
What a lovely afternoon it is. Cloudy and cool but i'm enjoying it. Now if it would only rain...we need some badly.
I'm having some tummy troubles as i type this...i think it's just nerves. I was talking with N about meeting soon and it just started. I get like that, silly nervous about things. Speaking of silly...i sent him a picture of my breasts. We'd been joking back and forth about my breasts and the size of them and he was curious to see...i don't blame him i guess, he is a red-blooded male and i happen to like my breasts so decided what the heck. Well before you get the wrong idea, i do not make a habit of doing this, this is a first...if my mother knew she'd kill me. Anyway, he was commenting on my breasts and the subject got round to us meeting soon...i want to meet him so badly but i think we should take 'this'...whatever this is, slowly. He really is a nice guy...and i don't know what future if any we can have, since he lives in another country.... i mean we haven't even discussed a future......seee, i am totally getting ahead of myself. Don't want to scare him off. Anyway...he's gone to do some chores, i'm sure we'll talk about it when he comes back.
I've found some really interesting blogs to read lately... ones i am really enjoying. I have bookmarked them and will keep going back for updates. I think i will link to some of them so if you happen by, you can take a look.
I am so tired right now...i didn't sleep much at all last night and i think i've only had about 2 hours sleep...so i need a nap, but i ordered some groceries to be delivered this afternoon so i cannot lay down until after they come... but then i hate to lay down and miss out on a chance to chat with N.
I was just thinking of heading out for a walk...i'd obviously already forgotten about the groceries...i'd forget my head too if it weren't screwed on. So will walk later...the perfect day for a walk. Wish you could come.
I'm having some tummy troubles as i type this...i think it's just nerves. I was talking with N about meeting soon and it just started. I get like that, silly nervous about things. Speaking of silly...i sent him a picture of my breasts. We'd been joking back and forth about my breasts and the size of them and he was curious to see...i don't blame him i guess, he is a red-blooded male and i happen to like my breasts so decided what the heck. Well before you get the wrong idea, i do not make a habit of doing this, this is a first...if my mother knew she'd kill me. Anyway, he was commenting on my breasts and the subject got round to us meeting soon...i want to meet him so badly but i think we should take 'this'...whatever this is, slowly. He really is a nice guy...and i don't know what future if any we can have, since he lives in another country.... i mean we haven't even discussed a future......seee, i am totally getting ahead of myself. Don't want to scare him off. Anyway...he's gone to do some chores, i'm sure we'll talk about it when he comes back.
I've found some really interesting blogs to read lately... ones i am really enjoying. I have bookmarked them and will keep going back for updates. I think i will link to some of them so if you happen by, you can take a look.
I am so tired right now...i didn't sleep much at all last night and i think i've only had about 2 hours sleep...so i need a nap, but i ordered some groceries to be delivered this afternoon so i cannot lay down until after they come... but then i hate to lay down and miss out on a chance to chat with N.
I was just thinking of heading out for a walk...i'd obviously already forgotten about the groceries...i'd forget my head too if it weren't screwed on. So will walk later...the perfect day for a walk. Wish you could come.
A very early morning and i am still awake. I did sleep last evening, for about three hours so that would be why.
I watched America's Next Top Model...and was very pleased with the outcome. Jasline won and i feel she really deserved it, i've been pulling for her all along. Speaking of winners though..i wonder where all the previous winners are and what they are doing, perhaps one day they'll do an show where they update us on their careers. Just a thought.
Well i just had a rather nice surprise. N was just online in Skype and sent me a message, lovely. I was telling him that i really wish it were Saturday and he could stay home and chat with me...alas, it's not...so off to work he goes.
I was just about to head to bed but my mother woke up fussing about..so i'll stay awake a while longer until she settles back down. This must be what it's like to care for a child, i think. I've been reading some blogs of women who have children and with some things i can really relate.
I've just decided that i am hungry. There isn't much to eat and we definitely need some bread. We seem to really go through it now but i'd love some toast right now...however my sister is asleep on the sofa right off of the living room so i won't eat now. It won't be long before she is up so i'll either wait until then or just wait till morning...or maybe i'll just sneak out and get an apple.
Mission accomplished..i am happily munching a crunchy apple ... mother didn't want one, she is settling down but has not gone back to sleep.
Nephew just left for work. He did what he had to do in the bathroom, then packed his lunch, all very quietly, so as not to wake his mother and off he went. I hope he keeps this job, he doesn't have a great history of that, so i'll keep my fingers crossed.
Darn...now my fingers are a bit sticky...must go wash my hands and go take some of my medication...i shall return.
I watched America's Next Top Model...and was very pleased with the outcome. Jasline won and i feel she really deserved it, i've been pulling for her all along. Speaking of winners though..i wonder where all the previous winners are and what they are doing, perhaps one day they'll do an show where they update us on their careers. Just a thought.
Well i just had a rather nice surprise. N was just online in Skype and sent me a message, lovely. I was telling him that i really wish it were Saturday and he could stay home and chat with me...alas, it's not...so off to work he goes.
I was just about to head to bed but my mother woke up fussing about..so i'll stay awake a while longer until she settles back down. This must be what it's like to care for a child, i think. I've been reading some blogs of women who have children and with some things i can really relate.
I've just decided that i am hungry. There isn't much to eat and we definitely need some bread. We seem to really go through it now but i'd love some toast right now...however my sister is asleep on the sofa right off of the living room so i won't eat now. It won't be long before she is up so i'll either wait until then or just wait till morning...or maybe i'll just sneak out and get an apple.
Mission accomplished..i am happily munching a crunchy apple ... mother didn't want one, she is settling down but has not gone back to sleep.
Nephew just left for work. He did what he had to do in the bathroom, then packed his lunch, all very quietly, so as not to wake his mother and off he went. I hope he keeps this job, he doesn't have a great history of that, so i'll keep my fingers crossed.
Darn...now my fingers are a bit sticky...must go wash my hands and go take some of my medication...i shall return.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
A lazy Wednesday morning
I had such good intentions for today. It is just after 11am and i have had a walk already. It rained a bit while i was out but it did not matter to me in the least, it just felt good to get out. When i get back, i thought, i'll do laundry. Well when i did get back and i checked the laundry room, all four of the washers were already going, some had loads on top, ready to go in next and all four dryers were happily tumbling away. Not a good time to do laundry, it can wait till tomorrow, i think.
When i got back to the apartment, i opened the door and there was mother, doing dishes. Nice, i thought. I think it's good for her to be up out of bed, puttering, doing small jobs like that. She was not amused. I had taken longer than i said i would be, ooops. I tried to explain to her that i felt good getting out for a walk and so i walked farther than i had anticipated, it was not planned (she always thinks everyone conspires against her) and so after i explained that, she calmed down.
Since she hadn't eaten yet (she didn't want anything before i left) i offered to make her something to eat. She didn't want much, only a sandwich and a glass of milk. I finished that and served it to her, by then she had returned to the bedroom and the comfort of bed. Since i wasnt going to be doing laundry, i put all the laundry i had sorted before my walk, back into the basket ...it will keep until tomorrow.
Right now my stomach is feeling a bit queasy... and i have a headache. My mother and sister both were not feeling well, with the same symptoms on the weekend, so i'm wondering if i have what they have, otherwise i feel fine.
I've had a couple of calls from friends this morning, one from my friend Dave in British Columbia, he called before he left for work, just to see how i was and how things were. I told him all was fine...it was good to hear from him. Also had a call from my friend Ash from the UK. He was calling from work...apparently he can slip in calls to Canada...i hope he doesn't get into trouble but he assures me they do call Canada there too...so it's fine. It was good to hear from him too, he told me how he'd planted plants in his front garden the night before and how his dog chased after a cat...odd because his dog is normally afraid of cats. Tonight he is planning on visiting his allotment, to check for weeds. Nice chats with both, buoyed my spirits.
Well i am just sitting here...no one is online so i think i'll go wash my hair and then run the vacuum and tidy up a bit.
Will be back later
When i got back to the apartment, i opened the door and there was mother, doing dishes. Nice, i thought. I think it's good for her to be up out of bed, puttering, doing small jobs like that. She was not amused. I had taken longer than i said i would be, ooops. I tried to explain to her that i felt good getting out for a walk and so i walked farther than i had anticipated, it was not planned (she always thinks everyone conspires against her) and so after i explained that, she calmed down.
Since she hadn't eaten yet (she didn't want anything before i left) i offered to make her something to eat. She didn't want much, only a sandwich and a glass of milk. I finished that and served it to her, by then she had returned to the bedroom and the comfort of bed. Since i wasnt going to be doing laundry, i put all the laundry i had sorted before my walk, back into the basket ...it will keep until tomorrow.
Right now my stomach is feeling a bit queasy... and i have a headache. My mother and sister both were not feeling well, with the same symptoms on the weekend, so i'm wondering if i have what they have, otherwise i feel fine.
I've had a couple of calls from friends this morning, one from my friend Dave in British Columbia, he called before he left for work, just to see how i was and how things were. I told him all was fine...it was good to hear from him. Also had a call from my friend Ash from the UK. He was calling from work...apparently he can slip in calls to Canada...i hope he doesn't get into trouble but he assures me they do call Canada there too...so it's fine. It was good to hear from him too, he told me how he'd planted plants in his front garden the night before and how his dog chased after a cat...odd because his dog is normally afraid of cats. Tonight he is planning on visiting his allotment, to check for weeds. Nice chats with both, buoyed my spirits.
Well i am just sitting here...no one is online so i think i'll go wash my hair and then run the vacuum and tidy up a bit.
Will be back later
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Finally...with a little help from an online friend, i got my Ipod restored, which means it cleared all of the songs that i had on it...yay!
This friend suggested i download the new version of iTunes, which i did and installed...and then voila, there was an option to restore which i didn't have (or just couldn't find) in the one i had. I was so happy and relieved...it was done, yesssssss!
I haven't taken the time to load new songs on yet though. I have selected two songs that i know i want but i really have no idea what else to put on, so i will take my time making selections.
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Today i am feeling down. I should go for a walk, it's beautiful out there but so warm in here, all i want to do is sleep.
I have met someone online that i am quite interested in. I have feelings for him which i am confused about because this has never happened to me before. I am wondering if he feels anything...or is it just me. I must talk to him but i'm nervous about it. I am chatting with him now but just can't seem to broach the subject.
Mother is napping so it's quiet, except for the sound of the television of course. I should go for a walk now but she'd be mad if i 'snuck' out on her...so i'll wait until later.
I need a cold cloth...and some clear thoughts...back later
This friend suggested i download the new version of iTunes, which i did and installed...and then voila, there was an option to restore which i didn't have (or just couldn't find) in the one i had. I was so happy and relieved...it was done, yesssssss!
I haven't taken the time to load new songs on yet though. I have selected two songs that i know i want but i really have no idea what else to put on, so i will take my time making selections.
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Today i am feeling down. I should go for a walk, it's beautiful out there but so warm in here, all i want to do is sleep.
I have met someone online that i am quite interested in. I have feelings for him which i am confused about because this has never happened to me before. I am wondering if he feels anything...or is it just me. I must talk to him but i'm nervous about it. I am chatting with him now but just can't seem to broach the subject.
Mother is napping so it's quiet, except for the sound of the television of course. I should go for a walk now but she'd be mad if i 'snuck' out on her...so i'll wait until later.
I need a cold cloth...and some clear thoughts...back later
Monday, May 14, 2007
I think what i was trying to say in my last entry...was that it feels like my world is closing in on me and instead of fighting it, i'm letting it happen. I feel as if i am sinking....
I am so frustrated right now, i am sitting here crying...i am trying to load some new songs onto my Ipod...but i can't, for the life of me, remember how to. SO i looked it up on the internet and found a PDF file...i think it's the answer...but i can't figure out how to do what it's telling me. Has my mind turned to mush. I am not a dumb woman but for goodness sakes, i can't figure this out. At this point i just want to clear all of the songs off and start new, put all new music on..if only i could figure out how.
Sinking
I am so frustrated right now, i am sitting here crying...i am trying to load some new songs onto my Ipod...but i can't, for the life of me, remember how to. SO i looked it up on the internet and found a PDF file...i think it's the answer...but i can't figure out how to do what it's telling me. Has my mind turned to mush. I am not a dumb woman but for goodness sakes, i can't figure this out. At this point i just want to clear all of the songs off and start new, put all new music on..if only i could figure out how.
Sinking
Favourite song at the moment
GOD SONG - Beth Orton
My house was built for loving not a theatre of war
I take the poison for the cure
But he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
Yeah he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
And I'm praying for the strength not to carry on
I've watched and learnt to lead a decent life
But meanwhile I'm dying inside
Cos he's my man and I keep doing him wrong
Yeah he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
But I'm praying for the strength not to carry on
I was built for loving not playing at war
And I leave justice in the good hands of the law
But he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
Yeah he's my man and I've done him wrong
But I'm praying for the strength not to carry on
My house was built for loving not a theatre of war
I take the poison for the cure
But he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
Yeah he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
And I'm praying for the strength not to carry on
I've watched and learnt to lead a decent life
But meanwhile I'm dying inside
Cos he's my man and I keep doing him wrong
Yeah he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
But I'm praying for the strength not to carry on
I was built for loving not playing at war
And I leave justice in the good hands of the law
But he's my man and I've been doing him wrong
Yeah he's my man and I've done him wrong
But I'm praying for the strength not to carry on
Ramblings
Well the patient is doing quite well. She goes for a checkup today at 5pm. Her sore has been healing nicely. She is eating crunchies again and seems to be doing well on her antibiotics. She seems her happy self again, which pleases me no end.
It was a boring, lonely weekend. I slept most of it away...so much on my mind, no one to talk to. I hoped i could talk here but i can't seem to let it out, why. The desire is there but i'm so wound up it just won't come.
I need to go for a walk...i haven't been going, even with gentle, or not so gentle prodding. I meant to go last night but i just felt so lousy....and when i went to grab my Ipod to take with me, it was dead so it seemed like a sign that i wasn't meant to go. Okay so i was grasping at straws and just using it as an excuse...really i'm just tired of being alone, of doing things alone...of always being alone or with my mother. I feel guilty for thinking this way...but i am 34 years old and i want to be in love..i want the love of a man...i want companionship...i want comfort...i want someone to tell me it will be alright. I feel stuck right now...i have no money, i am basically 34 years old and financially dependant on my elderly mother. I feel like a child all over again with the wants and needs and desires of a grown woman. I have desires that i cannot act upon....there is a man i want to meet and instead of being able to hop on a plane and go meet him. I am depressed...i am so down i can't even express it. I cry a lot, i cry because i am stuck right now. I have to care for my mother, she is so dependant on me it is scary. Why did i let this happen..i had a good job, i made a good living, i was independant and happy. I got here because i was trying to do my daughterly duty...she needed me and i was there. But what about my three sisters...they haven't given up anything, they wouldn't. Are they smarter than me...what did they know that i don't. I feel guilty for thinking like this. I feel guilty for typing it here for someone to read, as if it is a reflection on me as a person. I guess it is... but what is it saying. I've been trying my best, i really have...well maybe there is room for improvement. I could be more patient. I could pay more attention to her instead of losing myself online, mostly talking to men who really could care less about me but are looking for fun and fun to them means cyber sex. Married men, men who are taken...trying to talk me in to it..trying to talk me in to threesomes. Why? Do i sound like the kind of woman who would be interested in that type of thing. So i delete said men from my list, only to meet more men like them. I feel disillusioned. I would just like to find some friends.
I think i've found someone...i love spending time with him...i want more time with him... i feel like i have feelings for him but i've never felt like this before, is this 'normal' to develop such strong feelings for someone i've not met face to face.
I think i am losing it....i think i have lost it...i don't know how to get it back. I don't know where it is anymore.
Oh...i need help.
It was a boring, lonely weekend. I slept most of it away...so much on my mind, no one to talk to. I hoped i could talk here but i can't seem to let it out, why. The desire is there but i'm so wound up it just won't come.
I need to go for a walk...i haven't been going, even with gentle, or not so gentle prodding. I meant to go last night but i just felt so lousy....and when i went to grab my Ipod to take with me, it was dead so it seemed like a sign that i wasn't meant to go. Okay so i was grasping at straws and just using it as an excuse...really i'm just tired of being alone, of doing things alone...of always being alone or with my mother. I feel guilty for thinking this way...but i am 34 years old and i want to be in love..i want the love of a man...i want companionship...i want comfort...i want someone to tell me it will be alright. I feel stuck right now...i have no money, i am basically 34 years old and financially dependant on my elderly mother. I feel like a child all over again with the wants and needs and desires of a grown woman. I have desires that i cannot act upon....there is a man i want to meet and instead of being able to hop on a plane and go meet him. I am depressed...i am so down i can't even express it. I cry a lot, i cry because i am stuck right now. I have to care for my mother, she is so dependant on me it is scary. Why did i let this happen..i had a good job, i made a good living, i was independant and happy. I got here because i was trying to do my daughterly duty...she needed me and i was there. But what about my three sisters...they haven't given up anything, they wouldn't. Are they smarter than me...what did they know that i don't. I feel guilty for thinking like this. I feel guilty for typing it here for someone to read, as if it is a reflection on me as a person. I guess it is... but what is it saying. I've been trying my best, i really have...well maybe there is room for improvement. I could be more patient. I could pay more attention to her instead of losing myself online, mostly talking to men who really could care less about me but are looking for fun and fun to them means cyber sex. Married men, men who are taken...trying to talk me in to it..trying to talk me in to threesomes. Why? Do i sound like the kind of woman who would be interested in that type of thing. So i delete said men from my list, only to meet more men like them. I feel disillusioned. I would just like to find some friends.
I think i've found someone...i love spending time with him...i want more time with him... i feel like i have feelings for him but i've never felt like this before, is this 'normal' to develop such strong feelings for someone i've not met face to face.
I think i am losing it....i think i have lost it...i don't know how to get it back. I don't know where it is anymore.
Oh...i need help.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
So the patient, Buddy...is recovering.
She has an abcessed tooth. Her face was all swollen because it was impacted, so it had to be drained and irrigated. Four times a day now we have to irrigate it with water and iodine. Also, she is on liquid soft food so we have to feed her that through a syringe. Sunday she will start on a course of antibiotics. She was given a shot today for that and also for pain, the poor thing must really have been suffering and i feel so guilty for not being able to act sooner. We did get her in to see the vet as soon as they had an appointment available. She goes back Monday at 5pm for a checkup. The bill for todays appointment was $473. Ouch. It gets worse...she has to go back to have surgery to have the tooth extracted...that will be an additional $1000. Double ouch. Did i tell you i'm not working right now. Man they are expensive... but you can't see your pet suffer, can you...no way.
God bless her, we all love her to death...so anything for Buddy.
Hockey game is on right now...in the first overtime period. Ottawa and Buffalo, go Sens!
She has an abcessed tooth. Her face was all swollen because it was impacted, so it had to be drained and irrigated. Four times a day now we have to irrigate it with water and iodine. Also, she is on liquid soft food so we have to feed her that through a syringe. Sunday she will start on a course of antibiotics. She was given a shot today for that and also for pain, the poor thing must really have been suffering and i feel so guilty for not being able to act sooner. We did get her in to see the vet as soon as they had an appointment available. She goes back Monday at 5pm for a checkup. The bill for todays appointment was $473. Ouch. It gets worse...she has to go back to have surgery to have the tooth extracted...that will be an additional $1000. Double ouch. Did i tell you i'm not working right now. Man they are expensive... but you can't see your pet suffer, can you...no way.
God bless her, we all love her to death...so anything for Buddy.
Hockey game is on right now...in the first overtime period. Ottawa and Buffalo, go Sens!
Buddy
My Buddy is sick. I have no idea what is wrong but the right side of her face is all swollen and i am worried, we are all worried about her. The soonest we could get her into the vet was Saturday morning at 11am.
I just noticed it today, it wasn't like this last night...so i'm really hoping it is nothing serious.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Friday...again
Friday again, i can hardly believe it. A week has gone by since my last post, it seems like yesterday... no seriously, it does.
I've had a pretty day today. I rose early to get all of the laundry underway. Since i last wrote, my sister Susan has moved in along with her adult son Michael. Both needed a place and thought this would be a good situation for all. So now i am cooking and doing laundry for four. On a postitive note, the expenses will be divided by three. Three you say, well there are four of us living here....well that's what i say too. But it won't go into that right now. Let's just say i am stressed out about it.
So i got the laundry done today, did some tidying up, made meals for mother and then needed a nap. I slept for a couple of hours this afternoon. When i woke, my sister was home and she decided she needed a nap, so i played some canasta alone to pass the time. I've been feeling terribly lonely lately, i have no idea why. I just am. I am now surrounded by three people and i still feel lonely.
I began taking antidepressants a few days ago...i can't remember when i exactly... but so far i see no difference. My doctor did say it would take a few weeks before i begin to see any improvement in mood...so i will be patient and wait.
Bedtime i think...off to watch some tv, won't be able to sleep much i bet.
Blog more tomorrow.
I've had a pretty day today. I rose early to get all of the laundry underway. Since i last wrote, my sister Susan has moved in along with her adult son Michael. Both needed a place and thought this would be a good situation for all. So now i am cooking and doing laundry for four. On a postitive note, the expenses will be divided by three. Three you say, well there are four of us living here....well that's what i say too. But it won't go into that right now. Let's just say i am stressed out about it.
So i got the laundry done today, did some tidying up, made meals for mother and then needed a nap. I slept for a couple of hours this afternoon. When i woke, my sister was home and she decided she needed a nap, so i played some canasta alone to pass the time. I've been feeling terribly lonely lately, i have no idea why. I just am. I am now surrounded by three people and i still feel lonely.
I began taking antidepressants a few days ago...i can't remember when i exactly... but so far i see no difference. My doctor did say it would take a few weeks before i begin to see any improvement in mood...so i will be patient and wait.
Bedtime i think...off to watch some tv, won't be able to sleep much i bet.
Blog more tomorrow.
Friday, May 4, 2007
A not so lazy Friday night
A beautiful night out there, i just came in from a quick walk, i ate too much for dinner and wanted a brisk walk to help digest my meal. It feels so good to get out in the evening, i will have to try to get out more often ..of course i can't hide behind my sunglasses then... but then again i don't have to, do i.
Saw Nick briefly on Skype... he'd had an evening out with some friends and i guess he was quite drunk. I even think he passed out talking to me, what a meanie! I waited all day to talk to him too.
To make matters worse, Buffalo won tonight in overtime, taking over the lead in the series 3-2...i can't believe i'm blogging about a Sabres game but i do have a major bet riding on this series.
So i came home after my walk to tidy up. I hadn't done dinner dishes...we had a late dinner because i did end up going to Walmart after all. I had planned to go earlier in the day but got lazy and ended up sleeping instead (remember my long nap)...so i headed there tonight and bought the things we wanted/needed. I got myself some Alka Seltzer...i've been having bouts of queasiness. It just comes on all of a sudden...i can't explain why...hence the seltzer drinks. What else did i get...well cat food and treats, toilet paper..i hate to get too low on that and then have to run out and get some so i like to keep stocked up. Mother and i are like that, we like to keep the cupboards/pantry/fridge and freezer full. My sister doesn't like it and when she is here she often curses (she has a penchant for doing just that) when she has to put anything in the fridge or cupboards... but we like it, so there! She'll just have to get used to it.
After all of that, i cleaned the stove and fridge and put away the rest of the stuff in the kitchen. When i was done that, i made a fruit salad consisting of strawberries, mandarin oranges, peaches and chunks of sweet pineapple. I will have a bowl later, for sure. I would have bought whipped cream had i thought of it... but i'm much better off without it.
So now i am sitting here, typing this...and dreaming of that bowl of fruit. Mother is asleep so i'll wait for her to wake and see if she wants a small bowl too. There is enough there to feed a small army but what the heck, fruit is good for you, right.
I think i'll get into bed and read....goodnight blog, goodnight Nick, i hope you made it safely into bed and aren't asleep at your computer....oh maybe you were on your laptop in bed....in either case, grrrrr!
Saw Nick briefly on Skype... he'd had an evening out with some friends and i guess he was quite drunk. I even think he passed out talking to me, what a meanie! I waited all day to talk to him too.
To make matters worse, Buffalo won tonight in overtime, taking over the lead in the series 3-2...i can't believe i'm blogging about a Sabres game but i do have a major bet riding on this series.
So i came home after my walk to tidy up. I hadn't done dinner dishes...we had a late dinner because i did end up going to Walmart after all. I had planned to go earlier in the day but got lazy and ended up sleeping instead (remember my long nap)...so i headed there tonight and bought the things we wanted/needed. I got myself some Alka Seltzer...i've been having bouts of queasiness. It just comes on all of a sudden...i can't explain why...hence the seltzer drinks. What else did i get...well cat food and treats, toilet paper..i hate to get too low on that and then have to run out and get some so i like to keep stocked up. Mother and i are like that, we like to keep the cupboards/pantry/fridge and freezer full. My sister doesn't like it and when she is here she often curses (she has a penchant for doing just that) when she has to put anything in the fridge or cupboards... but we like it, so there! She'll just have to get used to it.
After all of that, i cleaned the stove and fridge and put away the rest of the stuff in the kitchen. When i was done that, i made a fruit salad consisting of strawberries, mandarin oranges, peaches and chunks of sweet pineapple. I will have a bowl later, for sure. I would have bought whipped cream had i thought of it... but i'm much better off without it.
So now i am sitting here, typing this...and dreaming of that bowl of fruit. Mother is asleep so i'll wait for her to wake and see if she wants a small bowl too. There is enough there to feed a small army but what the heck, fruit is good for you, right.
I think i'll get into bed and read....goodnight blog, goodnight Nick, i hope you made it safely into bed and aren't asleep at your computer....oh maybe you were on your laptop in bed....in either case, grrrrr!
A lazy Friday
Things here have brightened up and i don't mean weatherwise. Mothers mood is considerably more cheerful since yesterday. I don't know what brought it on, i'm just very thankful for it.
Today i have had a very lazy day with a bad headache. I went for a walk this morning, a short jaunt but one just the same...when i came home i laid down for 'an hour'...3 hours later i woke up...which means mothers lunch was very late. She didn't seem to mind and i was happy about that, a day sooner and she'd have been very angry.
So i got her lunch ready, today she didn't want soup or a sandwich, she wanted crumpets and milk. Easy enough...i can do that. Toasted and buttered them with a healthy (or not) dollop of jam and poured a cold glass of milk and that was it. The kitchen is a mess with some veggies and fruit that there is no room in the fridge for. Which reminds me, i've forgotten to take out something for dinner...must scrounge for that. Hmmmm, what to have?
Oh i just got off the phone with a friend. He called to see how i was doing with my latest news, etc..told him i am fine and coping well, life's a peach, right. Riiiiiiiight. Well most people don't really want to know the ins and out of day to day life ...so i blog here...it helps keep me sane...no honest, it does.
My sister will be here over the weekend...i'm hoping we'll make time to watch a movie or two. I am so behind...really want to see The Last King of Scotland and Little Children...oh and a eat a nice big bag of popcorn, yum!
Must get my bum up off this chair and tidy the kitchen..do dishes, etc.
Where arrrrrrre you Nick?
Today i have had a very lazy day with a bad headache. I went for a walk this morning, a short jaunt but one just the same...when i came home i laid down for 'an hour'...3 hours later i woke up...which means mothers lunch was very late. She didn't seem to mind and i was happy about that, a day sooner and she'd have been very angry.
So i got her lunch ready, today she didn't want soup or a sandwich, she wanted crumpets and milk. Easy enough...i can do that. Toasted and buttered them with a healthy (or not) dollop of jam and poured a cold glass of milk and that was it. The kitchen is a mess with some veggies and fruit that there is no room in the fridge for. Which reminds me, i've forgotten to take out something for dinner...must scrounge for that. Hmmmm, what to have?
Oh i just got off the phone with a friend. He called to see how i was doing with my latest news, etc..told him i am fine and coping well, life's a peach, right. Riiiiiiiight. Well most people don't really want to know the ins and out of day to day life ...so i blog here...it helps keep me sane...no honest, it does.
My sister will be here over the weekend...i'm hoping we'll make time to watch a movie or two. I am so behind...really want to see The Last King of Scotland and Little Children...oh and a eat a nice big bag of popcorn, yum!
Must get my bum up off this chair and tidy the kitchen..do dishes, etc.
Where arrrrrrre you Nick?
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Bad habits or little known things
1. I don't like seafood
2. When i say the word opposite in my mind, i sing that freaky Paula Abdul song "Op po sites Attract"
3. I have a total aversion to pubic hair (don't ask)
4. I secretly wish i had JLo's bum
5. I run the water too long when getting a drink or making ice or whenever...i find the sound of running water soothing but i must change this...must help the planet out.
6. I have a secret crush on someone but because it's a secret i can't tell him!
7. I used to bite my nails, terribly....i am finally broke of that habit but it takes a lot to not fall back into it.
8. Believe reading is necessary to a happy life
9. Long to have children... but need to find Mr Right
10. Wish for peace on earth but know it's not bloodly likely
2. When i say the word opposite in my mind, i sing that freaky Paula Abdul song "Op po sites Attract"
3. I have a total aversion to pubic hair (don't ask)
4. I secretly wish i had JLo's bum
5. I run the water too long when getting a drink or making ice or whenever...i find the sound of running water soothing but i must change this...must help the planet out.
6. I have a secret crush on someone but because it's a secret i can't tell him!
7. I used to bite my nails, terribly....i am finally broke of that habit but it takes a lot to not fall back into it.
8. Believe reading is necessary to a happy life
9. Long to have children... but need to find Mr Right
10. Wish for peace on earth but know it's not bloodly likely
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
I had a nice evening tonight. My sister came over to keep me company since mother is not speaking to me and didn't speak to her either...what is up with her. Anyway, we had dinner and did the dishes and then we just lazed around and watched tv.
America's Next Top Model was on and we watched that...was a good episode, finally Brittany went home, i really thought she should have gone home much sooner. It was fun watching it with my sister...to see her reactions to the girls. One Saturday when she was here we watched Britain's Next Top Model but i didn't care for it really...Sue watches it every week now. I just couldn't get in to it and i really did have a hard time understanding the girls with their various accents from all over the UK i guess. The language was something else too, they don't bleep out the curse words on Star! Not that i'm a prude or anything but wow... i think it was worse language than the Osbourne's show...i think.
If tonight is any indication, it should be very nice having Sue around...not that i doubted it but we just have never lived together... she is signifigantly older than i am and i she married young and so i don't remember her living at home, though of course she did.
As i mentioned, mother still isn't speaking to me, well she is but it's just snide comments under her breath. I wasn't sure she'd eat dinner when i made it but she did.
Well i am off to have a nice long bath and thoughts of nights at the Sheraton.
America's Next Top Model was on and we watched that...was a good episode, finally Brittany went home, i really thought she should have gone home much sooner. It was fun watching it with my sister...to see her reactions to the girls. One Saturday when she was here we watched Britain's Next Top Model but i didn't care for it really...Sue watches it every week now. I just couldn't get in to it and i really did have a hard time understanding the girls with their various accents from all over the UK i guess. The language was something else too, they don't bleep out the curse words on Star! Not that i'm a prude or anything but wow... i think it was worse language than the Osbourne's show...i think.
If tonight is any indication, it should be very nice having Sue around...not that i doubted it but we just have never lived together... she is signifigantly older than i am and i she married young and so i don't remember her living at home, though of course she did.
As i mentioned, mother still isn't speaking to me, well she is but it's just snide comments under her breath. I wasn't sure she'd eat dinner when i made it but she did.
Well i am off to have a nice long bath and thoughts of nights at the Sheraton.
I don't know how much more of this i can take...my mother is being so obstinate...and not speaking to me...and all because i had been chatting online for awhile last night. She is not happy now unless i am seated next to her, watching tv.
She does not believe in the internet and certainly not me spending time with people chatting, she just doesn't get it and doesn't understand how you can feel a connection to someone half way around the world. How can i make her understand...i just cannot.
So she isn't speaking...and when i asked her what she wanted for breakfast, she said she'd get her own. Well that is just unheard of, she doesn't even get her own glass of water...so i don't see how she'll be making her own meal....but i'm happy to let her try. Maybe she will prove me wrong and will be just fine. I worry about her but i cannot believe how difficult she is.
Well at least i've had my walk...thank goodness. It's beautiful out today, unlike yesterdays cloud cover. I walked in a huge circle...and stopped in to the pharmacy and picked up a few things...i've been craving some potato chips. Okay so i've been doing pretty good at curbing that craving but today i caved.
I also just ordered in some groceries. There is no way i feel like going out today, my head is about to explode...so i placed my order, i just hope i have enough cash on me, otherwise i'll have to ask Mrs Happy if i can borrow some until i can get some out of the bank. They will be calling back with a total for me...might be quite expensive as i got a fair amount of meat as we are running low. It will be here some time this afternoon...so no nap for me.
Well...i suppose i should get some laundry going or do something...though i'm quite happy to stay and play some solitaire....
She does not believe in the internet and certainly not me spending time with people chatting, she just doesn't get it and doesn't understand how you can feel a connection to someone half way around the world. How can i make her understand...i just cannot.
So she isn't speaking...and when i asked her what she wanted for breakfast, she said she'd get her own. Well that is just unheard of, she doesn't even get her own glass of water...so i don't see how she'll be making her own meal....but i'm happy to let her try. Maybe she will prove me wrong and will be just fine. I worry about her but i cannot believe how difficult she is.
Well at least i've had my walk...thank goodness. It's beautiful out today, unlike yesterdays cloud cover. I walked in a huge circle...and stopped in to the pharmacy and picked up a few things...i've been craving some potato chips. Okay so i've been doing pretty good at curbing that craving but today i caved.
I also just ordered in some groceries. There is no way i feel like going out today, my head is about to explode...so i placed my order, i just hope i have enough cash on me, otherwise i'll have to ask Mrs Happy if i can borrow some until i can get some out of the bank. They will be calling back with a total for me...might be quite expensive as i got a fair amount of meat as we are running low. It will be here some time this afternoon...so no nap for me.
Well...i suppose i should get some laundry going or do something...though i'm quite happy to stay and play some solitaire....
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Last night was a very late night, my mother was giving me a very hard time about being online. She's right, i am on here a fair amount of time but i need some human stimuation and chatting does provide that. I can't sit next to her all day, every day and watch tv, i'd go insane. Maybe i already am...sigh. So it was a rough night, full of tears...maybe its why i'm so down and tired today.
It is after 8pm and i just got dinner in the oven. I had been online and went to lay down for 30 minutes and slept for considerably longer. At least my mother let me sleep, in part because she has been dozing too. So i've just thrown some ribs into the oven and i'll make some rice with peas and asparagus too. I hope it's good.
What a day it's been. I haven't been this lethargic in a long time. A few times today i've sat here at my computer and nodded off. Sure i've felt tired sitting here but not nodding off like this. I did get out for a short walk thanks to some not so gentle prodding by a certain someone...i felt better once i'd been out but it wasn't long before i was nodding off.
American Idol is on... it's Bon Jovi night. I like some of their music but i'm not really in to the show tonight.... i'm just biding my time until the hockey game comes on at 10.30pm. Go Canucks!
It is after 8pm and i just got dinner in the oven. I had been online and went to lay down for 30 minutes and slept for considerably longer. At least my mother let me sleep, in part because she has been dozing too. So i've just thrown some ribs into the oven and i'll make some rice with peas and asparagus too. I hope it's good.
What a day it's been. I haven't been this lethargic in a long time. A few times today i've sat here at my computer and nodded off. Sure i've felt tired sitting here but not nodding off like this. I did get out for a short walk thanks to some not so gentle prodding by a certain someone...i felt better once i'd been out but it wasn't long before i was nodding off.
American Idol is on... it's Bon Jovi night. I like some of their music but i'm not really in to the show tonight.... i'm just biding my time until the hockey game comes on at 10.30pm. Go Canucks!
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