Facing the facts

I found out today that i am diabetic. Type 2 diabetes. My father had diabetes but he was insulin dependant. He did not look after himself and he died from complications from his diabetes. I am not insulin dependant, i started on some tablets today called Metformin. Just one tablet in the morning, with breakfast (i'll have to start eating breakfast) and one in the evening with dinner. I'll have to watch what i eat, will have to change my meal planning because we live on rice, bread, potatoes, etc. These are all bad things from what little i know so far. I have to attend a meeting with a dietician to learn more about how to manage this disease. I want/need to know as much as i can find out.

I also know i have to start walking again. I have always been an avid walker. Not seriously athletic but enough to keep trim. I am by no mean fat, perhaps i could stand to lose 6 pounds and i will work on that too... but walking will be good for me. I'll just have to make time to do it every day. My mother will not be happy, being left alone but this is something i have to do for myself, so i'm hoping she won't give me a hard time about it. Sometimes she can be more reasonable and i need her to be that way this time.

So i've begun to read all i can on the internet until my meeting with the dietician. It all seems very promising... that i will be able to live a norma, healthy life.

When i heard the word diabetic, i was frightened, remembering my fathers death but i know i can do this.

Well i have such a bad headache still, it's been with me most of the day though worsened through the night. I talked to my doctor again about it and he reassured me that nothing was wrong from the tests i had, that i needed to relax (my blood pressure was slightly elevated) and try to calm down. Easier said than done, i am a worrier.

When i get headaches like this, tension headaches, my neck and shoulders get very stiff and sore. Sometimes my mother will massage them but she hasn't much strength in her hands and so i hate to trouble her. I have read up on this type of headache and on top of taking some muscle relaxers, i found some tips on doing some neck exercises so i've been trying those and deep breathing. So far i don't find it helps but i'll keep on trying.

Well i think i will head to bed. Tomorrow is another day.... yay!

See you then.