My mother is driving me insane today...am i horrible or what? It all started because she is not feeling well....she just got her antibiotics switched because she wasn't tolerating the others. She had to see a doctor on call yesterday because of it...a doctors appointment on a Sunday, such a rarity...anyway...so she hasn't been feeling well. When she is like this, she is clingy and whiny and just wants me there, with her. So last night..i meant to have a nice relaxing bath and then go to bed..well mother wasn't having that. She wanted me to stay up with her because she was in a panic. Ok so i did...and it was almost 7am before i got into bed and was falling asleep... next thing i know someone is hitting the bed (i hate that) and calling my name, over and over and over again in a real annoying way. When i was able to open my eye and peer at the clock, it was 8.26am....i'd had about and hour and a half of sleep....and i felt like it too.

I tried to calm her down but she was having none of it...she gets herself all wound up and there is no consoling her. I was cranky and rather short with her. I am on medication to help me sleep and if i don't 'sleep it off' then i am often cranky and groggy. I tried to get her to allow me to sleep for a while but she was totally against it...so i resigned myself to waking up...it took my over 30minutes to totally wake up. Once awake, i still felt cranky and was short with her (and now i feel guilty for it) but i did my best to comfort her.

Part of her complaints was that her stomach was "on fire"...i suggested she have some breakfast. She wasn't convinced at first but i eventually talked her round and so i made her some oatmeal and toast with a big glass of milk. She ate some but not all and so i did the dishes and then sat with her, holding her hand, coddling her and trying to get her to calm down...all in vain.

At 11am her favourite game show comes on...she couldn't get interested in it at all...much to my dismay..i was really hoping for the welcome distraction, for her sake as well as mine. We sort of watched it...followed by Funniest Videos and then Family Feud, all her favs.

After that i just could not stay awake any longer...i explained to her that i had to sleep, i was feeling nauseous because i hadn't slept long enough and also i'd be better for her, more patient if i could just have a couple of more hours of sleep. She finally aquiesced and i got some much needed sleep. I slept for almost 3 hours, thankfully...but now i have a rotten headache...so i'm off to take some tylenol and then get ready to make dinner....no idea what i'll make tonight, leftovers from last nights dinner i think...but we shall see.