It was a bit of an up and down day today, mostly down.

Mother has been in one of her moods so its been rough in that respect. I had trouble sleeping last night so i took something to help me sleep...meaning today i was very drowsy. I don't like feeling like that but it means i slept longer than usual. When i woke up, she was clearly upset with me for having slept so long. When i asked what she wanted for breakfast, she gave me a terse "nothing". When i asked if she was sure, saying she needed to eat something, she shook her head no...and i knew from that point on today would not be a good day....and it was not.

I will spare you, my imaginary readers, the details....suffice it to say she was miserable and took it out on all around her...and she pulled no punches today (not that she really ever does...but today was particularly cruel)

Because of the medication i'd taken to help me sleep last night, i felt tired all day so really did nothing at all. I tidied up a bit, did some dishes and tidied up the bathroom, which for a small room, always seems to be a mess.

When it was lunch time, out of guilt, i asked mother what she'd like for lunch...she said "i'll get it myself" and get it herself she did. She made herself some soup and a sandwich and i just read...clearly today she wasn't going to let herself need me for anything.

In the afternoon i laid down and had a nap, i had to...i couldnt shake off the medication i'd taken...i was groggy. I woke at 3.30pm and got mother and i some ice water then i logged into icq and msn. A bunch of people were online so i chatted for awhile until it was almost time for the tv to be delivered. It was almost 5pm.... and she was getting uglier by the moment. I wasn't sure what would happen when the tv guy arrived. I had offered to pay her half for the tv and then pay her payments to pay off the balance but she said "i don't want your f****** money". Nice language (and believe this i am giving the tame version) from a 73 year old woman. In the end she let him set it up and started to tell me a bit about it when she spoke right up to him and said " you should be telling me, i'll be the one running it"....ok, fine mother. With that i walked away. She was not above embarassing me in front of this man and i didn't want to hear anymore of her snide remarks.

When he was ready to leave, i showed him to the door went to the living room to watch tv with my sister who was home from work by that time.

She and i had a nice, relaxing evening. I didn't feel in the mood to cook but again (i never learn) i offered to warm some leftovers up for mother but she again declined my offer in a not-so-nice way and so i threw a couple of frozen pizzas in the oven for the rest of us (mother made herself some toast and then had a piece of pizza).

S and i spent the evening watching tv, first So You Think You Can Dance and then Canada's Next Top Model. We enjoyed both of those shows and then it was time for the Sopranos. I watched a bit of it but then decided to go to bed..instead, here i am blogging.

I think i will close this and get into bed with a magazine. I hope tomorrow will be a better day...and i get to play w ith the tv.

I should have bought it myself....another lesson learned. I feel so down...please let her be in a better mood tomorrow.